Friday at 4:30 it was officially my weekend and I couldn't have been happier. We had plans to take mom and dad to PF Changs for dinner (they had never been and it has quickly become mine and Jaydens new favorite restaurant)....mmmm....lettuce tacos :) and of course Betsy was invited to tag along because...Betsy's always invited. Dinner was great, dad even liked the menu and didn't complain about food or prices....so we may have a winner!!
Saturday morning my wonderful weekend came to a screeching halt, well actually a pretty hard fall on a very hard and cold and rather slippery tile bathroom floor. I slid and the left side of my face caught the tile while the right side of my head slowed my body down as it slid down the door frame, not forgetting to hit every door hinge on the way down. To say that it hurt was the understatement of my life, not even the year....my whole life all 26 years of it! My mom, who wasn't home when it happened, came in only to tell me that my face was bruising and although she had no clue how I hadn't busted my head open/got a concussion....she was sure I would have at least 1 black eye. GREAT!! Jayden went with her Papaw to see my dad's mom in the rehab/nursing home type facility so me, mom, and nana had a girls lunch at my favorite restaurant ever...gumbeaux! That was a huge turnaround to my not so lovely morning. Saturday night, my morning bad luck came back....in FULL....as I was eating dinner (big family dinner that dad and I cooked with EVERYONE) I began choking....not just cough a little and get a sip of drink choking but can't breathe, start changing colors, had to have the Heimlich choking. At this point my day has went from bad to TERRIBLE. I finally came back to the table after the whole incident and my dad looked at me only to comment about how bad of a day I had actually had. I should have just gone to bed right then and there and slept until the day of doom had ended.
Sunday morning I accomplished a couple of firsts for me. They may not have been huge things to others but to me it was almost monumental. I have started going to 1st service at Central Baptist and other than having to be at church around 8:45 (service starts then, but who would I be kidding to say I was there right at 8:45) and this was the first week that I had to go and sit by myself in service. My family enjoys late service but I have made the decision this year to start Sunday school and that would be during the 2nd service. So I walked in the church and found an empty row end close to the front. I ended up sitting with the pastors wife who is the sweetest person ever, but anyways I sang and listened and made it. I didn't feel funny about being alone (I'm not an alone person at church or in a restaurant...freaks me out!!!) There was a guest preacher at church this week....Pastor Ikey, I am not usually a big fan of older preachers...my ADD kicks in and I get bored quickly but for some reason this week I don't know if it was what I was needing to hear and GOD was trying to get something through to me but it worked. I listened to everything that man had to say and I felt something like really felt something during the sermon and it's been a while since I had that feeling. I can't tell you when the last time a sermon made me cry was and Sunday that sermon literally moved me to tears. After service was over I was walked down to a recommended Sunday School class by my preachers wife (sweetest lady) and introduced. While I'm not a very shy person that is an uneasy feeling for me when I'm in a new situation like that. The class is a ladies class and there are women who are closer to my age and women who are in their 60's. I enjoyed the time to meet these women and socialize and am looking forward to returning next week. After church I was able to spend the rest of the afternoon just me and Jayden. We had a special girls lunch and came home and curled up in my bed for our afternoon nap. It was nothing special, but it was special to me. I have been reminded a lot lately that she's growing up....quickly...and my little girl isn't going to be so little forever.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Break my Heart my BABY is GROWING UP!!!
So for the past week or so I have been slapped in the face more than once at the fact that my sweet precious little baby isn't well...a little baby anymore. She's growing up, she's losing teeth, and in just a few months will be finishing pre-k and well you know the rest.....
We started off Jayden's 5th birthday celebration with a birthday party at Build-A-Bear last Saturday with some close family and friends. Jayden has been planning this birthday party for months now so it had to be perfect and thankfully I think she had a GREAT time!
We started off Jayden's 5th birthday celebration with a birthday party at Build-A-Bear last Saturday with some close family and friends. Jayden has been planning this birthday party for months now so it had to be perfect and thankfully I think she had a GREAT time!
So after we had the birthday party on Saturday (which in Jayden's mind meant that it was now her birthday, for however many days she wanted, but either way it was her birthday - therefore her way or the highway) we took cupcakes into her Sunday school class that Sunday and then things kind of slowed down just a little. Until Monday night, Jayden has had this loose tooth for the past month or 2 and it was becoming very wiggly. After watching her mess with it I figured I would see just how loose it was and if it was ready to come out....well after about 2 shakes out it came. Jayden then became the hero of the world and nothing could have been any better. She couldn't wait to go to school the next day and show her friends and the only thing she could say to me was "Mama how am I going to eat now that I have lost all of my teeth?" :) bless her heart.
That night she went to bed and to say that she was excited for the tooth fairy to come is an understatement. She wouldn't go to sleep, she would lay there for a little while, then check and yell down the hall that she hadn't come yet. I don't know how many times I had to explain to her that the tooth fairy was like Santa, she wouldn't come until she was sleeping. Finally somewhere around 11:30 (after I threatened her with a spanking) I went to bed and had to set my alarm for my mommy duty since the sleeping was going so bad. My alarm went off in the middle of the night, I did what I had to do, and before my head even hit my pillow I heard her screaming down the hall again accept this time it was..."Mommy Mommy she came! She came! The tooth fairy came and brought me money!!" She was so excited. I sent her back to her bed and that was the last I heard from her that night. CLOSE ONE!! :)
On Jayden's actual birthday I woke her up singing to her (she thought it was the middle of the night and has since told me that I woke her up in the middle of the night just to sing to her - bless her heart)
She had to go to school so she wanted me to bring in cupcakes for all of her friends at school. See at this point we are up to I don't know how many....but TONS of parties and celebrations for this NATIONAL HOLIDAY :)
I know that everyone's family does birthday's different but in my family we go to dinner at where ever the birthday person picks so on Jayden's birthday we went to....Taco Mac. It was a nice dinner actually, just our family and we opened presents and she asked for my sister to make this sand/oreo pudding stuff...so it was basically a night just for her.
That night I put her in bed and it hit me, having a kid who is now 5 - who is excelling at school, who is in the last half of pre-k and headed to "big school"....I don't have a baby anymore. Some how this year though it was ok and I will gladly say that this is the first birthday that I haven't cried. Jayden told me very recently that I don't have to cry anymore, that no matter how big she gets she will always be my baby.
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Looking Back on 2012
We were challenged at church this past Sunday to look back on 2012, to think about the good along with the bad. I decided to take this challenge and to look back on 2012....
I was pretty positive after the year that my family had in 2011 that we were done with that dreaded "C" word and cancer would no longer be a word that we would use in my family. Before we could make it half way through January I was shown how wrong I would be and yet again the strength of me and my family was put to the test. Nana was diagnosed almost a year to the day when Pa was and we were in for a new list of challenges. After some pretty rough radiation and chemo treatments we ended out this year with a happy and healthy Nana who is CANCER FREE and we plan on keeping her that way!
Jayden turned 4 years old this year and began her soccer career. She began playing for upward in the spring and then played her second season in the fall. Teaching her that it is ok to take the ball playing soccer but not ok to take things from people in real life...yeah that was challenging. I saw a little girl who wanted to play nice and let everyone have their turn run out on that field last March and then I watched that little girl transform into a competitive player who scored the most goals on her team for their fall season.
On top of soccer Jayden danced in her 1st dance recital with Douglasville School of Dance. She did wonderful! The little girl who I was sure would be nervous up on the stage infront of everyone I think was the loudest child in her class. She's quite the little dancer, although she liked dance classes, hip hop is definately more her style. She loves to dance and move with her favorite music.
June 29, 2012 marked the 1 year since Pa died and there were times that I haven't known what else to do but cry about things and there have been days that I would give anything to just see him, but truth is...I have made it. My family has made it, we have missed him greatly but we have picked ourselves up and we have made it. I found the strength this year to go and visit his grave. I didn't think that I would ever go visit, I didn't think I could, but I did. I even took Jayden down there 1 night so that she could see where Pa was and could talk to him.
Over the past year I have spent it with my best friend, the man that I love like I didn't know possible, and the man that I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with. We have endured some challenging times together, some definate ups and downs but regardless we have made it. We are still together and our love is stronger daily. I couldn't imagine a better person for me, a male figure for Jayden, and a friend.
I have learned as I have gotten older that it's not about how many friends I have but to cherish the close friendships that I have. I have the best group of friends who are all over the place. Each of them have something special about them, and each are different but each of them fit perfectly in my life and are cherished.
I was pretty positive after the year that my family had in 2011 that we were done with that dreaded "C" word and cancer would no longer be a word that we would use in my family. Before we could make it half way through January I was shown how wrong I would be and yet again the strength of me and my family was put to the test. Nana was diagnosed almost a year to the day when Pa was and we were in for a new list of challenges. After some pretty rough radiation and chemo treatments we ended out this year with a happy and healthy Nana who is CANCER FREE and we plan on keeping her that way!
Jayden turned 4 years old this year and began her soccer career. She began playing for upward in the spring and then played her second season in the fall. Teaching her that it is ok to take the ball playing soccer but not ok to take things from people in real life...yeah that was challenging. I saw a little girl who wanted to play nice and let everyone have their turn run out on that field last March and then I watched that little girl transform into a competitive player who scored the most goals on her team for their fall season.
On top of soccer Jayden danced in her 1st dance recital with Douglasville School of Dance. She did wonderful! The little girl who I was sure would be nervous up on the stage infront of everyone I think was the loudest child in her class. She's quite the little dancer, although she liked dance classes, hip hop is definately more her style. She loves to dance and move with her favorite music.
Jayden wrapped up her 2nd year at Central Baptist Church Mother's Morning out and then began Pre-K at Winston Christian Academy in Mrs. Brown and Mrs. Serina's class. She left Central writing her name and those skills have grown tremendously. At my parent/teacher conference in December, I was told that Jayden is ready to begin reading and is ahead of her class with her skills.
I have learned a lot about myself this year. I have been strong when I didn't think I could handle anything else, I have loved like I never knew I could love, and I have learned about true friendships and that those never die.June 29, 2012 marked the 1 year since Pa died and there were times that I haven't known what else to do but cry about things and there have been days that I would give anything to just see him, but truth is...I have made it. My family has made it, we have missed him greatly but we have picked ourselves up and we have made it. I found the strength this year to go and visit his grave. I didn't think that I would ever go visit, I didn't think I could, but I did. I even took Jayden down there 1 night so that she could see where Pa was and could talk to him.
Over the past year I have spent it with my best friend, the man that I love like I didn't know possible, and the man that I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with. We have endured some challenging times together, some definate ups and downs but regardless we have made it. We are still together and our love is stronger daily. I couldn't imagine a better person for me, a male figure for Jayden, and a friend.
I have learned as I have gotten older that it's not about how many friends I have but to cherish the close friendships that I have. I have the best group of friends who are all over the place. Each of them have something special about them, and each are different but each of them fit perfectly in my life and are cherished.
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