Day 5 - What are 5 things that make you the happiest right now?
1. Watching Jayden grow - she is doing awesome, she's so smart and it makes me so happy to know that she's working hard and enjoys learning and being independent.
2. My job - I love the fact that I have every weekend and holiday off. I enjoyed my job at 911 but I hated missing half of Jayden's life....this gives me the opportunity to spend time with her and still be able to work. I have the flexiblity now to not miss school parties and functions. I am very fortunate to be where I am.
3. Coming Home - I used to love to be gone, the first chance I had to leave I was gone. I love being home now. I love spending time with my family and the people there.
4. My best friend - He makes me happy, I didn't know that I could love someone so much, he works very hard for me and our relationship and makes me a very happy person.
5. My friends in general - Nothing can compare to girls night where we sit and laugh til we cry. I have a few close friends and I wouldn't trade them for the world.
Day 6 - What is the hardest thing that you have ever experienced?
Losing my grandfather. I have never gone through anything so trying and traumatic to me. It was horrible, and that's putting it lightly. Once we found out that he had pancreatic cancer I cried all the time, I didn't sleep well, and overall I was just a mad person. I was mad that this had to happen to my family, I was mad that he was still so young, I was just mad. He wasn't supposed to leave me ever, much less now, I didn't handle it well, honestly I tried as best I could to not handle it at all. After he passed away I tried to act like it didn't happen, I would just cry at random times and sometimes the oddest things would just break my heart. It has been 18 months since he passed away and I still hurt, I still miss him and my family although we are making it and things are starting to feel like normal again....there is still a hole, there is still that missing puzzle piece that just makes it all fit.
Day 7 - What is your dream job and why?
This is a funny question just because I have been researching jobs a lot lately so that I can go back to school and finish my degree. I have decided on something in the purchasing/marketing/social media field. I look forward to a career in that. My ultimate dream job would include being off with paid holidays, being off for Jayden's and family functions, not working night hours, being off with my family on the weekends. I have a thing for me, it has been a personal goal of mine and I want to make enough money to feel like I contribute like I could take care of my family if I had to but more than the money I want to have a job that enables me to not only have but enjoy my family. One where I don't spend every waking hour in an office but I get to see Jayden and watch her grow and be an active parent in her life. She will remember that far more than the money that her mom made.
**ok there is 3 days in 1 - hopefully I am going to get back to doing this daily (like I am supposed to)**
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